My friend,
I guess I don’t usually address you in person, for various reasons I suppose, but this time I am coming with a burdened heart and I have some heavy news to pass along. If you have been tracking with me for a while I am sure this will be quite some shock and surprising in the very least, I know it was for me. But that is neither here nor there at this point. What I have to share today is something that has been on my mind, and I need to pour it out for you.
There is no easy way to put this, Jennica and I broke up.
There are, I suppose, many questions that are coming to mind, and I will try to address the ones I feel I can. Some of you will wonder at what I leave out, some of you(a very few) will know more then I lay out here. Anything I don’t put up here, I feel is better left to a personal conversation.
What happened?:
Nothing ‘happened’. Both of us are both of us are standing in good conscience as we leave this stage of our relationship. No one did anything wrong, no one was offended or taken advantage of, no outside interference from anyone factored into it, no one was at fault for anything in our separation.
We have been focusing out relationship on the idea of marriage, of watching and learning about the other person with an eventual union in mind. We set that as our primary goal when we started dating three months ago, and we have reached our answer. Through prayerful consideration it has been determined that God does not will us to be together. That is what happened.
Isn’t this sudden?:
Yes, it is. But there is no reason to argue with God about timing. Over time there have been some indications that we will not be able to stay together, but with more prayer and specific questions it is more and more obvious that we cannot continue dating without violating our original purpose. We now know that we cannot marry, and that is what we set out to find.
Is there any chance of getting back together?:
No. What we have learned shows us that without major changes to who we actually are, we aren’t going to be able to try again. The danger in making those changes is that we become what the other person is looking for and not who we are, and more importantly what God has made us to be.
Are you OK?:
Yes, I am fine. I was initially thrown for a crazy loop when we first talked about it, but God is good and through further communication we have been able to help comfort each other and see how distinctly it is the hand of God moving us apart. Neither of us have wanted this to happen, but we cannot ignore where God has led us. We are both doing much better then expected I think. Knowing it is nothing either of us have done, other then seek the Lords will, is a huge comfort. Jennica and I are still friends, much better friends then we ever were before, and I know that we will continue to build our friendship for however long we live in the same general area.
What’s next?:
I don’t know. God brought this about to begin with, and now He is taking it apart. At this point I cant say what all I have learned through this, but I know it is something that could not be learned any other way. The same goes for Jennica. Right now this is just the first course, taking a step back and trying to let people know what happened. I have had to make some changes even this week with plans and things, and I know she has as well. For now I want to ask that everyone who has any interaction with the two of us, either together or independently, to be sensitive about this. I want to be sure that as few feelings as possible are hurt and that our return to our separate lives is as speedy and smooth as it can be.
Throughout all of this I want to be very careful to emphasize that this is the work of God. Jennica didn’t ‘do’ anything, I didn’t ‘do’ anything, that led to this. There is nothing in our individual character’s that caused some sort of irreversible conflict. We have a very solid mutual understanding of each other and what is going on. And I think it is our desire that no one else sees our breakup as some sort of ‘bad’ thing. We are parting on very good terms and there are no ‘sides’ being taken. There are no bad feelings towards each other, nor do we want you to take any either. Our pursuit of each other was based on God, and His work and we will both continue living our lives in pursuit of Him, rather then our own desires.
Thanks friend, your prayers would be coveted as we carry on through this tough time.
Hey Amos, glad you posted the link on your status. It’s good to be able to hear when i don’t have a chance to hear what’s going on in your life very often.
~Billy
Amos, I will be praying.
This is a sad thing, but it sounds as though you both did the right thing, which is rare. Praise God for that, in this storm.
Thank you for telling.
And go with God.
Thanks for sharing. I pray God’s comfort and wisdom for you both, and I am glad you listened to Him now rather than later.
Hugs to you both.
Amen.
I’ll be praying for both of you, that God would continue to comfort you, as this is sure to be a difficult adjusting period. Praise God that He can work through the most difficult of circumstances.
You know I’m available to talk anytime.
See ya when I’m back.
Amos-
Remember not to get too wrapped up in how YOU are doing or how SHE is doing. Get out in the world and remember how GOD’S PEOPLE are doing. You’ll find more problems then you can shake a stick at and by the time you get started trying to help out the least of society you’ll find that the feelings that so easily betray you will become more submissive to the Lord.
Thanks for sharing this. Those who honor Him, He honors.
Thank you for posting about this Amos, I know I myself had some questions about everything that you addressed. I will be praying for you both. God bless!